The End: Anthology

I wouldn't mind this being the front cover if I were to publish these stories one book. It encapsulates how most of the characters are not taking advantage of the presence of their family to actualise a happier future. I thought of this because of where and what point of view the photo was taken from.

I wouldn’t mind this being the front cover if I were to publish these stories in one book. It encapsulates how most of the characters are not taking advantage of the presence of their family to actualise a happier future. I thought of this because of where and what point of view the photo was taken from.

The End is a collection of short stories in the creation process. Relationships, their fragility, monotony, strain, highlights and humorous streaks are portrayed in most of them. A couple of them are anomalies. I would like to point out that the title is a reference to the idea of how when something ends, another thing begins. The End: Part One, Port Fairy and an excerpt from Two Homes are available for your reading. Beware of serious grammar mistakes. Sorry about that. I relocated these stories from a page called Short Stories. From now on, I will attempt at giving access to the rest of the stories through hyperlinks, so you don’t have to go through the effort of scrolling down the page.

The End: Part One

May 2014

The Foot long meatball rolls from Subway are five dollars on Monday. All the salads, lots of pepper and ranch sauce. I asked the sandwich artist to load the loaf with more mozzarella cheese, this excited me because I woke up late this morning and didn’t get to have breakfast. Yes, I believe you when you insist that the bread is ‘Italian’. Lots of mozzarella cheese. The thought simply plants a feeling of longing in my stomach which I know will make the taste of the food better before I say ‘fuck yeah this is what you want.’ Wait, I didn’t ask for capsicum, and old English cheese…I could walk back to the shop in fifteen minutes but that would mean losing lunch time and probably having to smuggle the aroma expelling item past the damning gaze of Mrs Fawthrop. On top of that was the elongated cue that poured out of the establishment and past the pharmacy next door where soon-to-be-eating delicious piles of mush people just wouldn’t be able to help themselves but read the awareness posters about Kidney Disease and Liver Failure. Like randomly selected pieces of newspaper clippings that are used to fill the black spaces in collages, I accidentally spotted minor posters about the difference between HIV and AIDs behind the glass display windows. They looked more like wallpaper in combination with the pictures of teddy bears with speech bubbles, offering fun facts for avid learners. Honestly, no one in this town gives a shit, they read it and later after work they go home. The posters have no more effect than that. Sure. They’re intended to warn people but that subject has been blown up in the country’s face so much that I don’t think this particular community cares for it. Not that I see anyway. People in this place tend to drag their untapped attention and imaginative capacity to new or less talked about stuff. Not sex, drugs or alcohol. That stuff is a normal topic. Though it’s not like people here set out to seek the most unacceptable thing-but I look at my town and their attitude towards safe sex campaigns and it makes me wonder what warning would grip their attention. Flyers on the dangers of the boat people? Hm. Yeah that would actually grip their attention. It’s quiet unsettling actually.

During my departure from the take-away shop, my exit past the impatient throng of men, women and children, I had heard one boy child with a foreign accent ask his guardian; ‘What’s HIV papa?’ ‘It’s a disease Michael.’ The father’s accent was harsher. Russian? The rather awkward parent and son moment of teaching was lost from earshot when a car on the main street had sidled past. From the vehicle was the disgusting blare of electronic crap and rap. What happened to Bruce Springsteen? I wondered if the child had heard the lyric amplified by the sound system in the car; ‘…bitch you lied to me, you shot me with the gay disease, now my whole family is in dis-ease.’ Their public disturbance had stained the beauty of the still and wistful willow trees lined on the brick pedestrian counterpart in the centre of the colourful street. When the sun shines in this part of the country, everything seems a little happier. I had noted the cops across the x junction and I chuckled at how they are going to have a fun time with the silly hooligan promoting a stigma.

The walk back to high school is uneventful and I think about nothing, knowing though that my brain is still functioning intensely with its neural circuits despite my thoughtless brain patterns. I walk around a corner and step towards the entrance next to the blue stone wall. There is an interval of thinking though when the same car from the vexatious incident of before drifts in an unstable screeching manner around the corner. Good on you for speeding. I am impressed and rather turned on by your daring and masculine use of a vehicle that kills more people in your age bracket than people die from snake bites. The police car soon races behind and for a moment and for some irrelevant reason; the idea of my life crashing into something of stark difference to its banality breaks into my brain without prompting. I don’t need to worry about it because it is adrift by the time I turn to the entrance of the school. Giving high-speed chase for profane music. In front of kids. Is that necessary? I ready my mind for new thoughts about the themes of a novel to populate and overwhelm my thinking. The subway loaf all of a sudden became one of many unhealthy lunch rolls to me and not the appealing and fulfilling giant one.

It is one twenty three in the grey afternoon when I sit at the table. The assembly before lunch introduced to us, we the ‘Christian, grounded young adults’ about goals for future careers. This subject slowly nurtures itself under the topic of our conversation which is environmental science and how it’s meant to be one of the most lucrative fields in work at the moment. I call it ‘work’ and Greg call it science. What’s the difference? Ten minutes into my fragmented interaction with Greg-for I am profusely munching and savouring the mix of that meatball sauce and cheese, the juicy bitterness of olives in the background, ignoring tat bland capsicum and a surprising taste of jalapenos. Greg asks me ‘what are you gonna do when you graduate?’ I recount to him how my grandfather revealed to me before the start of first term that I will inherit the mechanic shop and I’ll start an apprenticeship when I leave school next year. Greg looks at me like I don’t know what the world is like. ‘No one’s going to take you on, don’t be stupid and get your year twelve certificate. At least…look you should really think about doing VCE.’ ‘Ever heard of VET?’ My retort is a futile effort. Ever since Mr Jaffo has started indoctrinating our grade about the fruitful benefits of VCE as compared to VCAL, Greg has taken it upon himself to talk long minutes with Jaffo about his goals in VCE. I think he does it to gain a ‘meritorious referee’ on his resume who coaches the girl’s netball, basketball teams and runs the annual mouth to mouth marathon. More outstandingly he does it obviously without him intending it to be because he likes recognition and the feeling of being liked by nearly everyone. Academia is not my forte but according to the ‘smartest’ dickheads in our form; VCAL is for ‘trolley pushers’ and ‘you can complete a semester’s worth of work for VCAL in a couple hours’. And aren’t tradespeople in higher demand than university graduates? I am not keen to argue with him that there are different reasons that land people in situations that invite them to work long and hard hours at the local Woolworths because he is too ignorant to understand that you gotta do what you gotta do. If you don’t accept the invite, you are either relying on money to be given to you or live like a sloth with a gradually building layer of lethargy. Greg…this ignorant and insensitive Prick. I know he aint lying about the second statement though. Which is why my folk aint payin for another twenty grand next year for me to sit in a class and do jack-shit except watching immature boys and girls throw plastic chairs at each-other. Well okay, let’s get this straight. It is generally the male boisterous toddlers who do this whilst the girls tend to bitch about their boyfriends and what a ‘slut’ Danika is for sucking off Bill in a car in front of Greg. I have overheard intelligent and rational conversations between them but not on a daily basis. When I reflect on the work ethic ineptitudes of both genders in VCAL, I often wonder what is worth more to a teacher who wants to change the way it runs, a firsthand account with the ‘colloquial’ language of a sixteen year old. Or a ‘report’ that the unqualified ‘personal development’ teacher would over load with adjectives and fancy words that have no fucking use in the context. The truth laid clear-the boys and girls are not giving a shit about the work because their task to be the ‘architects’ for a new garden was completed two hours ago. After that, fifty percent of the study syllabus is done. What next? Good question Mr Jaffo, why don’t you walk into the classroom and see why they don’t have anything to do next.

So to a degree it is not Greg’s fault for having his strong opinions of VCAL, because they support the opinion with their juvenile behaviour. However Greg wouldn’t want to listen to someone say that it is partially not their fault. Living in a town that is not the city narrows what you don’t want to accept. It doesn’t cut you off, it just reduces the exposure you get to a large variety of people and types of living. And a lot of people are not exactly eager to accept that a hard working mechanic or experienced plumber is worth more than twenty five psychologists. Greg in front of me doesn’t know that my grandfather runs a chain of mechanic shops in the South West region, but why do I need to boast when I know that there are too many science, teaching and childcare graduates being produced by this country and not enough tradies. And people wonder why we are taking in tradies from overseas. I want to tell him to compare the number of people in TAFE to a university but he is the sort of guy who wouldn’t listen to the more rational opinion that is not his own. One of my friends who attends an all-girls school in Gavindell has very similar views to me and puts it down to ‘uneducated moronic bogans.’ It makes me wonder if the term is not ‘only’ reserved for the lower class as stereotypes allude it to be and who Jessica refers to by the word ‘uneducated’. The literally uneducated or those who grow up with an education that flows in one ear and out the other.

Later I am sitting in one of those chairs battered by boys who give their ‘Victorian Certificate of Applied Learning’ an infantile reputation. The teacher is explaining too enthusiastically about the meaning behind the element of sensory input incorporated in the language by the author of a coming of age novel about a boy who is kidnapped from northern Italy in the years of lead and is hidden in an insulated community with very little inhabitants in rugged Puglia. I liked reading the novel because of its atmospheric story-telling and the swift progression of the primary narrative. Not too big like the stories where the authors over appreciate the show of their writing. No way could I read Cloudstreet again. The problem with Ms Fawthrop’s unique interpretation though is that I feel the wind from the sea and the heat of the sun most days and that don’t make the times when I come home on the bus more climatic than watching a helicopter shine its searching, creeping and angelic light down on you in the night. So I zone out, stop taking the notes about the teacher’s irrelevant chatter and I listen to some of the students who think life is in their control because they want to do VCE next year. The guys and girls I hone in on with my large oval pinna shaped ears are whispering. I hear that James who went to become a carpenter’s apprentice in year ten is ‘as dumb’ as Wendy who left school in year eight after ‘she got two percent out of one hundred in-on a maths test which was on the subject of numerical algebra and complex abstract fractions’. Jesus Christ. You sound more stupid than the prime minister. Of course they don’t know that Wendy now works at that hair dressing salon in Warrick and is quiet content and confident with her talent. But to these kids they think education defines your post school life prospects and I’m not eager to feed their snobbery. I force myself to stop listening and go back to the doodling I began at the start of the lesson. At one point we watch some scenes from the film adapted from the novel, one scene stands out to me and it’s of a mother pleading in Italian for her child’s captors to treat him like they are his parents and that he has done nothing wrong for himself to be victimised brutally. She cries knowing that her son has already being maimed and she cries even more because all she sees right now is every inability to save her son.

When I get home, my older brother is in the kitchen cooking tonight’s tasty grub. I have to tell ya it smells amazing. ‘What you’re making?’ My older and industrious brother replies with a tinge in his voice that I have absolutely concreted comes from his enlightenment in domestic house work. ‘Beef stroganoff, garlic bread’s in the oven.’ Yep, speaks it like a father who says he’s going to mow the lawn. ‘Sweet, you wanna come shootin before it get’s dark?’ James tilts his head up at me from the bubbling stew in the pan. His given name belongs to the person my classmates were slandering about today. He failed VCAL because the administration at our school had given him a copy of the study design from 2005 and not 2012. So in summary our parents paid twenty grand for him to work very hard and get A pluses or B pluses on nearly every assignment and be told: ‘Sorry, there was a mistake, please read this letter and we will organise a certificate under specific conditions.’ And the VCAL co-ordinator walked away. So my brother had completed the wrong bulk of work in the most vital year in Highschool. The ‘letter’ really was an apology where I assumed the teacher and administration was what the writer referred to as ‘they’ and ‘they’ worded their mistake in giving James the wrong syllabus as if it was a technological fault or a miscommunication from the Victorian Curriculum Assessment Authority. It was a disguised way of saying, we fucked up but we cannot offer special consideration by letting you repeat year twelve for free. We are going to try make ourselves feel better by looking at our successful students and pretending what we did to your son (which we won’t actually admit, just imply it in the subtlest way possible) is not related to us. That day my father and mother had waltzed into principal’s office with a bag of fury and their own reply to the letter which they outrageously voiced to Mrs Tallow. I imagine they asked questions in a chain of yells such as ‘How on earth could you give him the wrong work and not know anything about it when other students are producing different work!?’ ‘What excuse is there for being an irresponsible dim-witted leader of a ‘’prestigious’’ educational institution!?’ And yes. I think the latter was the question that rocketed from my dad’s frustrated mouth. My brother’s misfortune is a major reason why I am distrusting of my ‘best school’ in the ‘Normanby region’, as boasted about in the annual report in the national newspaper.

‘Alright.’ James says to my offer for the hunt. So we do it. Two hours before six we spend the afternoon sprawled on the beaten down vegetation behind a log at the edge of the wheat fields that make up the wide grainy and gristy belt of yellow around our house. The outer circle belongs to the bush and the greener and reposeful national park is four of five kilometres to the South which is behind a calm flat plain that extends to the thin outlines of beaches on the coast. Our father promised the previous owner of the property that he wouldn’t cut down trees to allow greater space for the cattle and sheep. There’s no wind so everything is silent as we lay with our chests abroad the smooth incline of compact dirt against the side of the log with our elbows dug into the weak bark on top. Any crickets, passing utes and trucks back yonder, trickling water in the creek that opens into a dam are approximately fifty or more meters behind us and the little animals are hushed up like as if we are actors on a stage before an array of living incoherent things. That thought is muddled by a flock of cockatoos that float over us and reach the bush but one of them turns around after they glide into the canopy where the lowering sun doesn’t reach and the moving pure white cloud follows the retreater and they all fly far away east. They didn’t make a sound. Thinking about how the birds looked like banana topped ice creams flying absurdly against the descending rays of the sun made my stomach grumble and grind, I wouldn’t utter a complaint or feel scared if a golden gay time or musso ice cream fell onto the ground next to me. The temperature has dropped a little and I can see my smoky breath which disappears into the stomata of the log. Also my vision has become clouded with mist like those mornings when the dew steams under the sun or when the windscreen of a car becomes foggy with condensation. It’s actually very cold now. Not too cold but chilly enough that Greg would go back inside if he was here with me. I am looking at the world through foggy goggles but my eyes are uncovered. ‘Your eyes getting sore?’ ‘Pretty itchy’ I reply. ‘You?’ ‘Nah.’ James doesn’t have his gun propped up like me, he is leaning with his back pressed into a smooth clove in the log, looking back behind me at the darkening big sky and the dim farm below it.

He speaks again; ‘Before you were born and I was three, dad was driving trucks up to Mossman and it was just me and mum at home. I found what I thought was a real pistol but what was actually an air one. I was walking in my nappy out here-‘I laugh at the absurdity. ‘Oi mate just listen-‘Oh my god James, you’re a lunatic.’ ‘Alright sorry continue.’ James resumes the anecdote; ‘so I walked all the way here and I climbed into the log…with the gun, thought I was playing a game of cops and abbos with myself…’ ‘Well…what happened?’ ‘A brown snake bit me dick.’ ‘….HAAhaha!!-‘I spend the next minute or minute and a half laughing like a ludicrous guttural high pitched rat. ‘HOOoooly shit, what the fuck?’ ‘Yep. I think I tried to shoot it but I must have missed because nothing happened. If I didn’t scream like I was feeling a knob piercing for the first time, mum never would have found me. Which was straight away. The snake still had its mouth around-well you know. So she pulled me out and grabbed its neck and held the head still between her head and forefinger and she plucked out its eyes to make it let go.’ ‘Fuckin motherfuckin hell!’ My bitter jovial manner doesn’t seem to be registered by James. ‘Yeah…well she threw the blind thing away as soon as that was that and then I passed out. She took me to the clinic and I must have got anti venom because I’m here.….’ ’how the hell do you remember that?’ I ask. ‘It doesn’t matter if it’s right, it’s how you remember it. Brother, on the eighteenth of December I was a silly duffa and walked out and got attacked on the penis by a venomous snake that causes more deaths than shark attacks. Our mother was quick thinking and brains was more useful that day than the air pistol and it would have been more useful than an actual gun. That’s why I remember it, because of mum.’ A resonating pause passes through. ’What a legend.’ I proclaim. I look at him with the typical sly and boyish facial expression. ‘So, so does it hurt?’ James just looks at me. ‘What the fuck do you think?’ I laugh some more. ‘Oh screw you.’ I see him grin a little too though, god you gotta love him. He stands up and faces the country contemplatively in the same direction as he was before. His gun leaning against the log with the barrel pointing to the sky. He brings out a cigarette and lights up, the little flame from his fire giving his face an orange glow against the intense surroundings. He puffs once and says this after tapping the embers into a small muddy puddle on the ground next to him; ‘do you wanna wait for a shot and get in trouble with Dad or go back and set the table.’ ‘Let’s walk back.’

It takes thirty five minutes and by the time we are at the gate I look back and raise my gun and glass the length of the edge of that area and through the scope I see a kangaroo. ‘They knew we were there, the smart son’s o bitches’ James says this like he thinks what I am seeing is an animal that knows how to play a game of I-come-with-a-gun and you hide. Evading the hunter before showing itself when he gives up. The distance is maybe too far and the bloody prickly cold would work against the path of the bullet. Couple hundred meters at best. A couple small hills rise between us and the mammal but it’s possible. ‘It’s bloody freezing mate.’ James mutters to me as much as to nothing with his rifle in his right hand with the cigarette still burning in the left hand. I say ‘Wait.’ I climb over the gate and walk to the closest wooden pole in the ground and I seat the gun in the back of my hand which is on the pole and the barrel slides between my ring and forefinger. So the gun moulds into my hand like it’s the weapon’s own contemporary stand. I’ve seen it on movies like ‘The Hunter’ where Dafoe holds the sniper rifle with one arm with the guns belly on his forearm against a tree. I am trying to imitate a similar position and the best I can get is looking like a bloke about to go for his shot at a game of pool. The kangaroo has its back to me when it falls forward with the sound of killing reverberating over the outer grassy rings of the country. ‘You go back and tell dad and mom I’ll be back by sevenish.’ James nods and walks away. ‘Alright mate, don’t take too long or we’ll get the shits.’ ‘Don’t worry. I won’t.’ I laugh again at the thought of James quirky story. I start walking back to the edge of home.

‘Fuck.’ The bullet had gone through its spine and took the life of its child that I never knew was there. There is a cylinder now profusely clogging with blood with strands of flesh around the hole violently forced back by the blow. The path as I make it out enters the mother’s back and out through its baby’s chest. ‘Oh well. Nobody’s complaining.’ I separate the mother and child and I carry the big roo in my arms and with the joey flipped over my shoulder with the rifle bumping against my shoulder blades on its sling. I trod my dirty way to my brick home with its insulating walls and where I want to welcome a natural fire in the fireplace. The sky is cerulean by the time I take to skinning the animals on the wooden desk out back of the house. It’s only five minutes into it when dad comes out and the wind that died early this morning lives up to a hair billowing breeze. It would have been better to talk to him without the wind because it wouldn’t be irritable as much. ‘James said you shot something.’ ‘We can have it for tomorrow and Thursday night.’ ‘James what did you shoot?’ ‘Just some kangaroos.’ ‘Be honest or you aren’t having dinner. Did you shoot a joey?’ ‘…Yeah…but it’s alright Dad…there were no rangers around.’ ‘Because you didn’t see em you nutter…don’t try to be an idiot again. For that you aren’t going out for the whole week.’. ‘C’mon dad…yeah I get it, we could get a two thousand dollar fine. But no-one saw me.’ ‘No you can’t, what you are on about, you can’t get fined.’ James says this in his surprised voice as he leans out the door behind dad and I can’t read his outline because of the shadow dad casts back over him. ‘If you shoot a mother, you kill the joey in the pouch.’ ‘Didn’t you know that?’ My helpful brother googles it on his phone that he saved money for himself and shows our dad. ‘Well fuckin oath sons, the rangers have been buggerin me around for a long time. I’m going to write a complaint.’ Our dad walks back into the yellow glow of the house with the movement of man on a mission. James just folds his arms and leans against the side of the door. ‘You got it bro?’ ‘Yeah.’ As I wrench the knife through the abdomen our dog barks. Probably another koala. ‘Did he say you weren’t allowed to go out for the rest of the week?’ ‘Yeah.’ ‘Doesn’t matter, me and Ben are going to Sawpit on the weekend. Listen I need help tomorrow with mum’s present, you have an hour to spare?’ ‘Yep.’ Their warm blood had gone a little cold during my walk back. The joey was curled in a foetal position with the mother curling around it like it was hugging its child when the boy pulled the trigger. ‘Cool, hurry up, dinner’s ready.’ ‘Okay.’

I finish fifteen minutes later by putting the meat in an eski with ice thickly coating its interior and I walk to a round table that now has one of two still warm plates of that saucy stroganoff. To the side is cauliflower that is not as white as the eyes of the mother kangaroo was when I turned over its body. Chloe is still eating. ‘Hi.’ ‘Hey.’ ‘Can you help me with maths homework when were done.’ ‘Sure.’ I don’t want to really. ‘I can’t wait for tomorrow.’ ‘What’s going on tomorrow?’ She looks at me as if I’m stupid. ‘I’m going to get my books.’

I end the night on an addictive note by having a beat to a nameless woman online-going at it hardcore with a man she met an hour before she agreed to do the film. The man I learn the name of at the very start and before I fall into the sleep that is partially induced on me by the experience, I feel ashamed that I just noticed for the first time that you never are told their names. That they are referred to as the ‘wet girl’ who is ‘ready’ for a ‘pounding’ and other degrading things. At the same time I feel guilty about not doing the study I was supposed to do and the fees my parents are paying for me to be as slack as what I condemn other lazy blokes at school for. Some opting for VCE and VCAL. And then like how no-one could have ever seen the speed in which death left my gun and touched another family…. The only trace of reality that falls into sleep with me is the sound of the song of ‘Yellow’ by ‘Coldplay’, coming from the TV in the lounge room. The lyric ‘You know I love you so’ stays with me. Dreams of touch and wanting warmth and shameful secrets begin from that lyric, like a springboard, splashing into a new emotion. That is the clearest description of what happens to me in the first moment of crossing into sleep. Everything else is gone in the narrowest nanosecond. Today was a warning. And I had ignored the solution.

One of many properties in Heathmere. The location I visualise the major story arc to happen in.

The characters, workplaces and the organisations they represent are in no way related to-or drawn from the elements of Port Fairy. Well at least not from the elements I know of and understand. And I understand very little, only that it’s a pleasant village on the coast forged by colonialists. The only qualities from the narrative that should remain real is the endearing amiability of the townsfolk and their willingness to invest effort into their yearly flower and music festivals-as well as maintaining the neatness of their physical community. The services such as the efficient audiologist and their nefarious ‘Fish and Chippery’ are favoured far and wide by members of the immediate region. What I am expecting in the outcome of this story is a particular criticism regarding the language use specific to a young character. It is so because of me being witness to a younger child using far more ‘vulgar’ words than those portrayed to you in the story. Hopefully you can piece together the messages about modelling and growing into adulthood with ideas endorsed by close family. The concepts are not universal, the story identifies a category of experiences without exploring the whole box. American readers who do not understand the schedule of important days of the year in Australia would need to do research on the implications put forward by the details of the plot, well I imagine so. I also expect judgement on grammatical mistakes, even if they were minimised as much as possible. The short story is assembled from a collection that is a work in progress. Please enjoy.

Port Fairy

September 2011

‘Thanks mate’.                                                                                                                                                                              I smiled at the seven or eight year old-looking boy, whose twangy tone of voice was obviously modelled after the sound of his father’s voice along with his lexicon of words. ‘No problem trouble maker.’ The wink I put to the dad causes him to nod and smirk-a face that say’s; Yep, you aint lyin. The father and son start digging into their beer battered smoked salmon and chips, crumbed silver-side strips, calamari and little zucchini sticks immersed in crushed crotons with olive oil. It’s easy to tell that the idea of eating at the ‘Fish and Chippery’ raises excitement between them. Like a memory they want to revive again and again, the taste reminding them of old days. The parents must be divorced, poor tyke. The song that repeats ‘tonight’s going to be a good night’ finishes which means the whole CD with my carefully selected compilation of indie rock and other songs are finished. I am about to change the CD for the second one before something happens. ‘Excuse me mate?’ ‘Yes?’ The father was staring at my bum when I turned around to answer him. ‘Can we have more chicken and some of that sauce?’ ‘It’s cool mate, but you’ll have to pay an extra ninety cents for both’. In my customer friendly and plastic way of speaking, I have convinced the father that I am not offended by his leering. If we were at the bar I would have told the wanker to cut it out. Considering the sunny vibe of today, I’m not in the mood to quarrel. The son speaks up this time in the chatter. ‘That’s cheaper than the blimmin toothpick chicken nuggets from the General Store, Crikey!’ Everyone in the takeaway restaurant laughs with me at the boy’s direct observations and it takes my train of thought away from the torridness of what might be have been going through the father’s head. I bet the father is now thinking about what a cheeky witty bugger his son will be one day. The owner of the general store that was just mocked is Mike Rentopa, and he charges two dollars and seventy-five cents per one and a half centimeter by centimeter sized crappy chicken nugget. Seriously, if you have one-you would think that he buys packets of them from Aldi and just microwaves them when he needs to top up his hot food compartment. And we aren’t laughing at the boy. We are actually cracking ourselves with the father because Mike is eating his lunch on the deck outside the shop. He turns around at the boy’s remark and gives him a glare that is mixed with contempt and embarrassment. Shit he actually looks upset. I walk outside to him among the other tables of customers-some whom are not trying to stifle their chuckles because they are tourists. ‘The bugger’s right y’ know, but don’t get sulky over that.’ I smile at him genuinely. The sixty year old looks at me with disbelief at how his business was just made a permanent laughing-stock by a ‘lil shit’ as he would whisper behind the boy’s back. ‘Why not lower it one dollars fifty, nobody would have anything bad to poke at then don’t you think?’ He also doesn’t look happy at my attempt at being uplifting for him. ‘More salt Mike?’ ‘Go away’.

Ron is cleaning up the kitchen with Sannie when we close the doors. We turn off everything and wipe down the tables, chairs, counter and kitchen equipment. One hour later we are done with this dragging task and we meet in the club room out the back of the restaurant. The sun is going down and outside, the river is navy blue against a similar looking sky, the landscape black in between. We sit at a circular table with twelve chairs and count today’s float. There is not much light save for the ones in the ceiling which are failing for a second occasionally.                                                                     ‘Okay, here you guys go. Better than last week, pay is a hundred dollars more than before. Let’s hope it stays busy.’ Ron counts his share himself and Sannie puts the money in her wallet. ‘I gotta go Bonnie.’ ‘Okay see ya Sannie, don’t forget to remind Fraya that she starts at nine tomorrow.’ ‘I will see ya.’ Ron helps me do an inspection check of everything and putting the left over money back in the money tills for tomorrow’s change. ‘See ya.’ ‘Yeah, see ya Thursday mate. We still going crabbing on Friday?’ ‘Yeah, my niece is coming down here for half the week, I’m sure she would like to do that.’ Ron nodded. ‘If the weather’s not indecisive as it usually is, we could probably go cray-fishing on my trawler or my father’s boat. Anyway we’ll see.’ ‘Sounds great. Have a nice night.’ ‘You too. Be careful driving.’ The street lamps are helpful in finding my car. My phone rings when I am driving to Koroit which is downhill out of the plain between Tower hill and Warrnambool. When I think of Tower Hill I think of a city for nature and it causes me to give further thought to Warrnambool as a city of humans and I always ask the question; which has more worth? It’s stupid and wasteful but not much goes on here except looking at sunsets, dawns and the environment. I turn left off the highway onto the main road as I read a message on my phone. Then the emphatic sound of colliding pierces my focus.

It takes me too long to slow the car, the phone jumped out of my hand at the shuddering jolt and the sound of a mechanic squeal is audible as I finally slam my foot into the brake.  Too late. Too fucking late.                                                               ‘…what the fuck’.                                                                                                                                                                           I begin to look left and right, knowing that I should look into my mirrors instead to know what just happened, I am too scared to though. Breathing heavily, I repeat it again.                                                                                                          ‘What the fuck.’                                                                                                                                                                          I just sit there shaking, verging on convulsing-and beginning to gasp.                                                                                     What have I done? Oh my god…no, nononono, this can’t be happening. This cannot be happening…oh fuck, shit I’m fucked. ‘…Oi-Aa!-fucktard, you nearly ran me over you noggin.’ Wait. Hold on. ‘-You hear me dickhead!?’ Shit, that sounds like the boy who mocked Mike today. I was just about to cry. I open the door and shine the torch of my phone back behind the car and on the road. ‘I’m, over here you fucking fuck.’ He swears like a trooper for a child. Like Jason Statham when he has no reason to. Wonder where he inherited that from. I finally ablazed him with the brilliant light from the very thing that just nearly shredded up my life. My car hit him so hard that he flew like a tossed rag doll into a ditch on the side of the road. ‘I am so sorry!’ ‘Oh my god I am so sorry, do you want to go to the hospital?’ Christ sake what a retarded question is that? I shine the light directly on the little form in the dent in the ground. There are blueberry bushes under and around him, when he crashed into them, their burst of berry juice covered him in that purple liquid which made him look like a gooey and goblin monster under the white shimmer. His hair is plastered to his forehead with juice, sweat and…shit…blood dripping down his leg and his arms. A dark read graze on his forehead. ‘I’m busted up but fine you idiot, my fucking ankle hurts bastard-I think it’s broken…’ ‘Okay…shit…Seriously I think I should take-‘. ‘Wait…where’s your father?’ ‘Dunno, drinking still probably’. Okay, okay then. ‘…Okay, um, let me carry you to onto the road and lay you down.’ I climb into the ditch with the phone in my jittery mouth and pick up the boy and I carry him precariously back up the slippery small hill and lay him down on the road. I take off my jacket and put it under the dirty and gritty boy’s body. ‘Lie down or something, what’s your dad’s phone number?’ He was barefoot, a twig in an airy singlet and loose baggy shorts that were fastened to his sharp waist with an expensive looking Quicksilver belt his size. The belt must belong to the boy because it was bought by the mother. Considering the state of the other baggy components of his attire: the rest was safe to be assumed that they belonged to the father. Prejudiced I understand, but I do that sort of thing nearly all the time. ‘Dunno, cunt’s probably too poor to buy a phone. Fuck!-Ow!-Dickhead! You got some spikes in me mister, you owe me some dickhead.’ My mother would have deprived me of food for a whole day if I expelled foul language like that. There are needle like thorns in the sides of his torso, neck, head and legs from the bushes. The boy began to scratch some of these pricked areas. ‘Damn you itched me mate.’ ‘Okay, ah, look…I will call an ambulance. Just-just wait okay.’                                                                                   The boy flares at me. ‘Takes you five seconds to say that you want to do something for me for breaking my fuckin bone, fuckin hell if I was in your shoes I would have it decided as soon as I made the mistake, not blabberin about like a bloody quack.’ This boy has really taken on a startling set of vocabulary. During my course of Art History at university, I stroked the wrong way on my recreation of the Father and Son and the unfocused mistake caused a piece of wood to stick into the clammy arms of Jesus’s son. It was worth 50 marks of the second trimester of ‘constructs and values’ which made me simmer at my artistic clumsiness. In the lounge with my girlfriends, Claire told me that I would have felt better straight afterwards if I just loudly used profanity. ‘Releases Twenty percent of the pain.’ I looked at her back and said: ‘And increases the anger by forty.’                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         ‘Ah shitty Christ! Ah…Hey…Hey you’re a mother yeah?’                                                                                                       ‘Huh?’ I am trying rewardlessly to get reception. ‘Wait here.’ The boy curses at me vulgarly again as I walk away and turn on the headlights in my car. I wish somebody would drive along by and help. I can’t not take responsibility for this though. The pair of suns at the front of my car illuminate my rectangular view of the foreground. As I walk back to him I ask; ‘What’s your name?’                                                                                                                                                                              ‘Callum. Mum calls me Cal.’ I nearly forgot the name after introducing myself to him, I discuss elaborately what needs to happen. ‘No arguing Callum, we are going to the hospital.’                                                                                                        We drive past homes and fields that look like pleasant yet Gothic structures under the moonlight. Their cream coloured weather boards are a dark oceanic aqua under the rays of the sun reserved for the night. My Highlander probably looks like a submarine in a big tank full of mystic water, the type you read about in encyclopedias where it’s almost pitch black in cavernous sea trenches. The surface is too far away and submerged in blackness to see. ‘Twenty minutes to Warrnambool, then we can sort out your injury.’ During my childhood in Yambuk, my brother would drive through Koroit before dropping me off at Warrnambool where I lived part-time with my grandparents. Randomly choosing any farm or craggy paddock stop, he would park the car and say ‘two hours before Warrnambool’.  We would take out a keg of coke, squash or lemonade and sit on the bonnet of his car and not say a word. Just look at the big sparkling sky. Sometimes he would drive with a couple of sausages wrapped in tin foil. Lodged into the steaming spaces in the engine so they were super hot and we often wrapped them in flimsy banana bread. It sounds a little strange I know. But they tasted pretty damn good with the bread. Sometimes if there was no traffic on the main highway, we could feel the undisturbed force of the waves at the beach a couple of kilometers south, crashing uproariously on the abundance of sandstone above the soft sand. Sometimes you could even smell the salt, like flavoured candles or the air fresheners in the shapes of leaves for cars. A slowly occurring sound that had different stages in it, millions of droplets in an uncoordinated choir. ‘Never forget what’s around you Bonnie’. Those words for some irrelevant reason swept like a moving mass into my consciousness. ‘My dad doesn’t even know how old I am.’ Callum, the mouthy lad, said this as casually as kids his age say ‘pretty good’ after being asked how their day was at school. Maybe my brother gave me half of the advice that I needed. The sky isn’t glistening and dazzling as it was years ago, but isn’t the quietness and unpolluted moon beautiful against the powdery world above? I thought of my grandparents, the father I never met. The pragmatic and cheerful brother that helped raise me. Coming from a bleak start in life to owning a takeaway shop notorious for its culinary doings. I was trying to conjure a clear and accessible solution for him, the pitiful boy next to me, something easy for him to understand that would ease him. This must suck for him.

‘Your father often drinks like a log when you’re down here?’ ‘Sometimes, when he doesn’t-he just sleeps on the couch and watches TV. It’s not bad though, I get to hang out with some of the kids from the Big Four camp. Never get to see em again. Still it aint bad.’ ‘’Just Sleeps’’. ‘Yeah. He actually has chronic fatigue.’ ‘Huh.’…‘Hey you’re a mum?’                           ‘…No. But I have an affinity for ignored people-if that’s what you’re getting at.’                                                                       ‘…So like…well…I was just asking because, like-you could chat to him about how to be a good father or something.’     What does it take for a boy to ask someone to give advice to his father?                                                                       ‘What’s a affinity?’                                                                                                                                                             ‘What, an affinity? Ahh…um-it’s when you naturally like a type of person you know, a constant positive attitude towards something.’ ‘Mate I don’t know as much words as you, speak with me, not at me.’

It was a couple of minutes down that explicative conversation I think when I reported Callum to the emergency room. It was getting towards eleven now and I wanted to go back home. I made a mistake though. So I need to stay for the boy. It is the best I can do. To have stopped complaining on the way here under the pain, toughen up and just ride it out, he’s a tough kid. Even if he talks like an annoying little shit sometimes. He must have started crying when I was honestly re-counting what happened to Callum to the Receptionist. The skeptical and totally judgmental creases about her middle-aged gaze were fair I guess.                                                                                                                                                                     ‘So you don’t know the father?’                                                                                                                                             ‘Not at all. Just served him at my restaurant today. It’s a mystery how the boy just left.’                                                        ‘Anything can happen anywhere, even if it’s small as a thumb tack in the corner of the world. Fucking people.’                   Christ what was that supposed to mean?                                                                                                                                   ‘You didn’t ask him?’                                                                                                                                                                   ‘I did, all he would tell me was that his father was drinking. He didn’t explain anything beyond that detail.’                                ‘…Alright. Look you’re going to have to give a statement to the police. I don’t care if you got plans tonight honey. We have kids here who are as high as the devil and we are understaffed. Got too many people to take care of right now.’               Great. ‘Okay?’                                                                                                                                                                     ‘Yeah sure…look I’m not going to go to court right. I mean a fine is deserving-I understand that…But this, why I crashed into the boy, it’s not going-.’                                                                                                                                                       ‘Sit down and quit yakking or you’ll pay the bill’                                                                                                                         It was her grumpy and agitated voice that made me stop. When I turned around, Callum was looking at me with pipes of tears tracing its way down his cheeks. He looked more of a mess than my cousin on his twenty-first. The silly duck thought it would be attractive to consume alcohol in a method that is particularly unconventional to the physical health of the lower abdomen and organs. Then it happens, the light-bulb moment. The Epiphany The thought. That attainable piece of advice. It’s going to come across like crap but I don’t want to ignore him and pretend he isn’t there.                                                                                                                                                                                                    So I squat in front of him and just tell him what I know. Because maybe that is all it takes.                                                       ‘Never forget your father.’                                                                                                                                                            ‘Wh-What, what do you mean?’                                                                                                                                                 ‘He’s maybe forgotten you, but you haven’t forgotten him. He’s treated you like a sack of shit, you can grow up disliking him…you can grow up hating him and not wanting to see him Callum. You have a right to. At least you can hold that against him if you talk with him later when your older kid, gain some power back and bring up some comfort in your own personal security or whatever. But after he’s done with his hangover, he is going to realise his mistake-no doubt it isn’t the first time. But you have the choice, the freedom to choose how your relationship goes from here on out. It is all up to you. No one will decide that for you.’ ‘Just-…ah’. I sigh frustratingly at how much of an unhelpful psychologist. Callum meanwhile is craning his head to the double door entrance of the room, out there are two cars. Mine is the two seated REVA NXG. Like a polished white tooth on wheels, gleaming under the lamplight. The other car is rolling out of the flat grey grid right now, a car that has more seats than mine. I can’t see who is inside but I have a pretty good idea of what’s flying through Callum’s mind. The once joyous and happy things that used to be together will not be together in the future. We just look at others and they remind us through the most implicit indicators of unity. He hasn’t complained for a while about his broken ankle. I owe him for at least not screaming about the physical pain I caused. Condemningly voicing it yes, but not throwing an unnecessary tantrum. I traced his focus again back to the red car that is at the end of the exit lane right now, its lights and flashing blinkers like a group of red and yellow electric units flickering energetically together in the darkness. He started to shake, like his body was under its own seismic earthquake. He didn’t watch who climbed into the car either but the thought of it was enough. Enough to really make that ambiguous damage. I started by hugging him tightly and patting his back. Trying to comfort him. Trying to soothe him. I wish his mother was here, or someone who knew what his feelings were-inside out. But it’s only me. A selfish stranger. In the end I had to call for help from the nurses behind the glass barrier at the reception just to attempt at controlling his panic attack and his convulsing body. ‘He said it was shit. That it was a useless present.’ ‘He…He…threw…bottles-’ at this moment, the nurse wasn’t listening to Callum as she injected a sedative, cutting off any more revelation. Any further understanding as to what really caused some of the shallow but openly bleeding cuts in his skin. Moments later, the boy fell to sleep.

It was one hour later when the police were just satisfied with my statement and with no more words about the tumultuous night-I left. Put the night behind me and find me a warm bed with a TV remote in front of a panoramic screen. Netflix wouldn’t be so bad right now. Pasta and pie. I remembered the unread message that was sent to my phone seconds before the collision with Callum. When I press the button to listen to it, I have to pull over on the side of the invisible road and breathe before the oncoming wave of emotion sweeps over me and around me in this small space. It makes me feel suffocated, like someone in a coffin with their last breaths of un-carbonised air.

‘’Hey Bonnie, it’s your grandfather here. Something terrible and devastating has happened…I am driving to Port Fairy right now. I guess I’ll just come out with it…This is hard’. ‘I am so. Oh my god Bonny. Okay. Okay. Jack’s dead Bonny. He was driving home and he crashed. We don’t know why or what. Look I am coming to you right now. We need to drive to Ballarat now to go to the morgue. I am so, so sorry this happened. Your brother, Jack he-I feel sick Bonny-please you have to call me back.  I love you Bonny.’’

‘Press one to reply.’ ‘Press 2 to delete the message.’ ‘Press 3 to save the message.’

I just open the door to my car and vomit. I think I sit there in that seat crying for a long un-static moment. My hands are trembling-too hard to drive. Ears ringing like an amplifier that has been turned up over its decibel limit. Yet the audacity of the silence right now is low. Nothing moves except my raging heart and the water pouring profusely off the tip of my chin. I even register the drag of the momentum in the waves colliding with the cliffs and rocky beaches. Faint and distinctive. I am shaking too. Not as sensitive and noticeably as Callum, but enough to let me know that it’s real. The staggering weight of it, the pressure it’s compressing on my heart. It is more than I can take to know without any thought that what is happening is real. What makes me feel like dying is that I forgot it was father’s day. I now know what Callum meant. A stranger’s words poured more weight on my heart than the resonant advice from family.

The Moyne River of Port Fairy.

Excerpt 1: Two Homes.

Two Homes is the current title for an upcoming story from The End: Anthology.

It is a drama and coming of age text, possibly might be finished as a novella. When I finish the final draft, I will give more background information about the context of the story. I have roughly 24 stories to complete before I can consider publishing the anthology as hand held copies. I plan to end the collection with The End: Part Two. Part One and Port Fairy can be read on this blog if you haven’t read them already.

Two Homes

2009

The full gulf of orangeness and redness will swallow us if we don’t leave. ‘Look at me Jake!’ My husband, stunned by a falling piece of debris from the ceiling, is dazing at me under the searing heat. ‘JAKE-we must get Lily-Abby and get out, get up JAKE!’ Our wall shakes with a rumble in a split second and explodes into our direction with the fist of the bushfire behind it. We are so close to dying. ‘JAKE GET THE FUCK UP!!’.

Two Months before

A boy at Warrick Primary yesterday said in community circle that school is like our work place. We, the neatly uniformed fifth graders arrive studiously at nine in the morning and leave at three twenty in the afternoon-eager for a new day of learning after our appropriately achieved amount of sleep. In and out. That’s how I look at it. A boring thing of how you move back and forth to one thing for six years. This though, this was far from boring. An adventure beyond the mysteries of childhood and marvel at the natural world. An adventure that landed me in the principal’s office, the principal whom is looking like as if he is trying to change the colour of his skin to that of a red apple with strange snakes under the skin of his forehead and forearms-even his neck. It really was an incident rather than an adventure, but Tolkien discovered endeavour in the oddest of things. ‘What happened and don’t give me any smart crap, tell the truth.’ ‘Grace pushed me, I was talking to Anthony and she pushed me. She pushed me Mr Trolt, FALICITY PUSHED ME. DO YOU HEAR ME? I WAS BULLIED AND SHE PUSHED ME, SHE CALLED ME A VERY MEAN WORD. I WANT-…’ Bethany is not my enemy. I see enemies as people worth paying attention to. She is comparable to a flea with no legs. Just as easy to ignore because of her useless contributions to class discussions with Mr Marc and just as lazy in team work classes with Mrs Calanser because of her inability to simply help. What a stupid, repugnant an incredibly judgemental girl. I believe that she will not be of aid society when she grows up. She is just an annoying little brat, like an ear lobe, just wobbling and not functioning for its purpose: to catch sound convex soundwaves and gather them in the ear. I feel her trying to burn me with her dirty looks when I use big words in English classes. I am not trying to sound smart! I get it. It makes me sound different and like a know it all. But you wanna know something Bethany, you moronic daft thing? It is not my fault that you don’t study the dictionary and sentence structure booklets after school because you don’t care about Highschool right now. But I want to be the best. That is my goal and my problem and Bethany just has a knack for expressing opinionated ideas about other people’s aspirations and tiresome missions. Anthony on careers day said he wanted to be a scientist when he grew up and Bethany said that he should learn to speak properly or else ‘scientist guys and boss people’ would think he is ‘retarded’ and that ‘they’ wouldn’t ‘hire’ him. The moronic mouthy human being obviously hasn’t heard of Albert Einstein who had a stutter, or Stephen Hawking. Me and Bethany-Bethany and I, are the same age but for crying out loud: have an open mind you arrogant smartless moron. Your mother intended to give birth to a rational human being, not a narrow minded snail who is practically asking to be squashed. I keep these thoughts to myself, but why? Why can’t Bethany just accept different people and not act weird around them. Arrrggh.

The incident happened at halfway through lunch time. The boy’s name is Anthony something, I don’t quite understand his last name because it’s too hard to understand. Too lengthy. He is the one who said school is like work. As mentioned before, he has a passion for science. David Attenborough specials, encyclopaedias on space things and stuff, he’s onto it. In the grade of adventurous prep-he was the first classmate I spoke too. Remembering what my mother said: ‘be kind and accepting, be yourself too but don’t let yourself put down others because of their difference’, I persisted in speaking to him in recess and playing brandy with him at lunch times. It grew more and more overbearing to interact with him however. He had some sort of ‘’disability’’, as the other classmates put it, he couldn’t use the sound ‘r’ or ‘s’ or even ‘th’ when he opened his mouth. ‘Where is the wake?’ he would ask when we had to clean up the bicycle shed where the floor is the bottom of an ocean of leaves which break off from the black-cotter trees along the edge dirty boundary of the school grounds-leaves that float through holes in the roof, large enough for us to crawl up and out into a higher platform of the world if we had a ladder or something. ‘Hey Ceve, can you help me carry this?’ Steve had no choice but to happily become ‘’Ceve’’. ‘Fair is a naked man running wild on the oval Mr Trolt.’ ‘WHAT!?’ Yes. It is true. Last year a man with some mental problem, paranoid schizophrenia or something, climbed over the back gate and ran onto the oval and just yelled at us. ‘I AM THE DIRT MAN!!’ Wearing nothing but his pasty skin. We all charged into the class rooms, locked the doors and emptied the scissors from the armoury of our pencil cases for battle. It all ended quickly after Anthony had immediately informed Mr Trolt and the police were called. ‘That man is naked, ew’. Really Bethany? I thought he was wearing a wetsuit that had a naked format. At first I had screamed and cried, who wouldn’t? It was a bloody terrifying and traumatic experience, but I felt better when I was huddled with my class mates in the classroom. All the teachers were having lunch at the Café Lazatte so thank our innocence that the principal was working in his office at the front of the school when the self-proclaimed ‘dirt man’ charged onto the school grounds. Five sessions later with the school psychologist and semi nurse, I stopped having panic attacks spurred by anything. Greg and Andrew were laughing in Science when they whispered that the ‘crazy guy’ was ‘fucked high as tree’ on ‘pingers’. Whatever drugs they are. Several months later, today, Bethany was nosy enough to dig up that the temporarily insane individual that was to be charged on indecent exposure to minors and adults, was in truth Anthony’s older brother who is intellectually disabled. Anthony wasn’t scared of him. I guess it must be because he has probably seen his misunderstood sibling heaps of times in that state. Sadly that was enough for Bethany to verbally and abusively conclude that because of the blood relation between Anthony and his ill-talked about hidden brother, that somehow Anthony’s stutter is an extension of the intellectual disability in Simon. I think his name is Simon. Anyway, I called her a ‘rude bitch’ and that she should ‘walk away’, she thought she was the nastier one by retorting that my Grandfather is dead. Simply put: ‘Yeah…well-you’re grandfathers dead, have fun cr’- before the next moment could arrive, I had half hit-half pushed the swiny big knob into the jutted concrete of the basketball court. Next thing Anthony and I knew was that we were soon to face against a family of swiny big knobbish apes for standing up to their single over-appreciated brat. It was like I could hear the storyteller, sitting on my shoulder, a sensible alter ego of myself saying: Meet Mr and Mrs Donolotto, very shortly to be the cathartic makers of your further frustration with ignorance and rudeness in the next forty eight hours. Well, it was more like I was meeting them and Anthony was silently hushed out of the equation. Didn’t want to involve his lawyer parents I guess. Because I got involved, that had given Bethany’s parents the perfect reason to not interrogate their lovely child and be awkwardly forced into a parental position of telling their daughter that she is responsible. I wish it could pan out that way, oh the amazing miracle it would be if Bethany experienced what it was like to truly understand that she is at fault. She is the snotty parasite from the sunny honeycomb that ruined the day. No. I hurt her. So they, Bethany’s parents, will aim their verbal guns of mortification and anger at me. The girl who defended Anthony. The boy who no student really cares about.

As the middle aged appearing man stands up in the ‘letting out and go’ room to share his experience or give a speech, I think about my daughter and what she is doing now. What is she thinking about? Is it good? Whatever it is I somehow know that it doesn’t have to do with me. Some mothers have that intuition. At first I thought it was uncanny but the conservations with my daughter have revealed that my wonders, while they are not accurate, they haven’t been far from the truth neither. Dyson calls it ‘cold reading’. Can he call me knowing that I had a bone bound idea that somehow at school, Felicity had burnt herself ‘cold reading? I uncovered quickly that she had scolded her hand with a fallen pot of hot water. Taylor and Lucy think it’s a ‘mother thing’ like all mothers naturally possess a quality for insight into the wellbeing of their children, a ‘universal’ characteristic. ‘Dr Seko’ my therapist, calls it ‘concentration of neurological activity in my prefrontal cortex and parietal lobes’. ‘Areas of the brain as you know Sarah, are involved with empathy, anxiety and social interaction. Anxiety and Social interaction Sarah. Anxiety and Social interaction.’ ‘How much am I paying you Dr Seko?’ During my welfare officer years, I met mothers who knew their children like they were just kids and not actually their children. Why are we different? What’s the effect of struggling on the perception of people close to you? Well one of them had a proper excuse because she had Korsakoffs.

The speaker brings my thought back to the surface. He speaks straight to the point of why he’s here.

That’s it. Please give feedback, any comments on my other posts as well would be awesome and very appreciated. Thankyou for reading.

Second Excerpt from the fifth short story:

This is an excerpt from the precursor of the climax in a short story called Gabriel Sohlers. It is not majorly relevant to the key messages of the plot, in fact it is just an ending development of the main character. It is so random that it wont reveal anything relative to the narrative’s twists. This one is more grittier than the others, even more so than Two Homes. (I’ve worked very hard on the ending scene for that one). Gabriel Sohlers is about a child care operator who deals with a perplexing ethical issue involving two fathers that compromises her legal obligations as a child care worker and her own moral compass as a mother. I would imagine this would be the heaviest to read. The fourth story has been begun but it is my flimsiest yet so that will take longer. The title is imperative to one of the key messages in the plot. Ultimately it is a portrait of the inadequacies of the law and compliance in modern society. Well the one that I know at least. The story takes place over eight years. The excerpt is below.

I strolled like it was a normal reasonable day to the car and tapped his window. His head harpoons to me like a quick parrot. As this happened I had tried the door handle but it was locked. ‘What d!-‘ He saw who I was and it was in that moment of understanding, drawing on the look of revenge on my face, he thought it safe to turn on the ignition and drive away from where I stood outside his glass barrier of protection. I couldn’t let that happen. For me, at that moment, it was as if that the generational angst scourged by this man could not move on to its home forgiven. That’s right fucker, look surprised, you’re going to feel something fresh and new extremely shortly. Deftly lifting the steel can of peaches from the plastic bag with my right hand, it took three smashes to break through the glass. Something had taken over me. When the local community ‘pillar’ punched me in the breast with his right hand whilst his left hand was on the steering wheel, Todd opened the passenger door and scrambled out of the vehicle. ‘GET BACK IN HERE SON!’ He took his foot off the pedal and turned his head, sprinkled with glass fragments, trying to intimidate me with that repulsive and absolutely arrogant and deadly glare. I was looking at him the whole time. At least I don’t try and act like someone I am not. His perverse punch had hurt but I wasn’t backing down. It took more punches to my face, slicing my arm a bit on the smashed window, but I gripped the door handle and dragged the stupid thing painfully open. Gabriel leaped out like a leopard and pounced on top of my slow turning frame. I didn’t see where Todd went. The father on top of me punched me in the face, my head shooting to the side like a rolling bowling ball. For five seconds I was seeing little meteors like white droplets glittering in all directions across my ageing sight. By the time it returned to normal, I pushed my aching self-up from the spattered asphalt below me and saw him again, dragging his son into the car on the other side. He saw me and threw his son into the passenger side. Few seconds before he would be on me again, trying to get away from the scene. I emptied all of the contents out of my bag except the glass wine bottle and I flexed my fingers around the thin handles behind my back. I pretended to back off when he rounded maliciously the corner of his car with his fingers spindled flamingly on the bonnet. I had really ticked off the man. I counted down. He was preparing to hurt me again. One. As he drew his fist back fleetingly from his side as he was one foot away from me, I tried to be quicker with my right hand, pivoting the left side of my body for momentum. Two. Fuck it. He’s doing it too early.

He was the victim for the first time in the eight years I knew him. A purple coloured circle with a smudge of red was evident in his left temple, it was there immediately after we both heard the sound of glass breaking and shards tearing. His eye closest to the canyon-like abrasion was locked shut and grimacing and tightly. It was right then and there that I laid into him.

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